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Ginger
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I have been a freelance writer for 20 years, having received wonderful corporate writing and business training from my first job out of college at IBM. I am curious about ... well, almost everything and that's why I am so grateful that my job also brings me joy. I am currently writing a book about d...
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I believe

Tuesday, January, 22, 2008

 

 

 

 

 

 

I believe in a love so powerful, so connecting, so fulfilling, that it both grounds me and enables me to soar. I believe it exists, can be created, and is sustainable. I believe it takes two people with a combination of qualities – depth, openness, trust, on and on and on I could go --- and wholly acceptance of themselves and each other. The ability to give. To make someone feel appreciated and known. To find the humor and the foundation of love above all else. Integrity and intelligence are integral, as is a quick wit and an even quicker ability to forgive.

 

 

 

I have loved people deeply and been loved back. I have loved people who did not return my feelings. I have also loved people un-fully, giving only some of my love, some of the time. Not as a calculated endeavor, but knowing that to give more would be either foolish or dangerous (or both) on my part, to me. I think they felt loved nonetheless.

I have disappointed people who felt they needed the energy I have, and called it love. It felt more like desperation. Apparently it is hard to find this energy, but easy to find people who crave it.

 

 

 

I have opened my heart up dozens of times … and closed it up tight a time or two as well. A year ago or so I thought it would never fully open again. In fact, I was unwilling to let it. I was cynical, untrusting for the first time in my life.

 

 

 

But over the last several months I have felt that familiar heart of mine … the one that has been through all those decades of dates and boyfriends and loves with me – awakening to its own pace of love. It is a heart that relishes the journey now, that knows that within the love I am sharing, in this most beautiful stage of my life, there doesn’t need to be more decisions or destinations than this, what we call love.

 

 

 

And this is what I think of each night, as gratitude overtakes me just before I fall asleep.


gingerj13
gingerj13
Posted Sat, 01/26/2008 - 20:21
I love this one. I don't believe wholly in that kind of love yet for myself, but I hope to.
Ginger
Ginger
Posted Sun, 01/27/2008 - 16:47
Thanks for your note (who is this, BTW? :) ) Do you believe this kind of love exists? (Just curious)
gingerj13
gingerj13
Posted Thu, 01/31/2008 - 17:39
Oh haha it's Angela...I knew who I was, so obviously I assumed that you did too :) I do believe it exists, because I see it in other people; but my experiences have not been conducive to expecting it for myself.
LoveSlave
LoveSlave
Posted Tue, 01/29/2008 - 20:25
To believe speaks of faith, of an intangible experience... But I know. I know this love of which you speak; not as something to be debated by philosophers, but as a palpable connection that bridges souls. A love that can be seen both between the people that share it and those that just happen to be in their vicinity! It is a love distilled of impurities… No agenda, no destination, no ego. Just the simple knowledge that another’s actions spawn from a place of trust, respect, care, and commitment. This is the love I now know, and I am so very grateful for it. YLLL